insanity is relative.

a lovely way to welcome winter.

2009-12-12T21:06:00.003+01:00

listening to winter's carol by tori amos at full blast while walking through the dark streets and the first shy snowflakes of the year.

the closer you get, the better i feel.

2008-08-16T11:45:00.009+02:00

8 on 16.08.2008

review from the schwäbisches tagblatt, 7.5.2008.

2008-05-11T11:49:00.000+02:00

you can watch some videos from the rehearsals at my youtube-account.

sixteen, muffins in tutus.

2007-11-16T15:51:00.000+01:00

dear tigress princess
oh so smart but
stumbling through your bavarian kingdom
in your pretty high heels
like a playboy mommy
tripping over bumble bee bunnies
jiggling the ice in your glass
chugging down the gin tonics.

and i hope that
wherever you are
i hope you're happy.

have a nice summer.

2007-08-13T01:57:00.000+02:00

i'm in japan from august 13th - september 26th.
hobbes and me are writing a travelblog during our time there.
check it out at http://idilnekoinjapan07.blogspot.com

tippy tippy toe.

2007-08-01T22:38:00.000+02:00

she can flip her hair,
i can FLIP YOU OFF.

i don't know what you've been playin'
i don't know why i've been stayin'
i got me some better things to do.

come on, bartender.

2007-07-15T18:36:00.000+02:00

come on, BARTENDER
just a little more tender
i ate all your peanuts
return me to sender

i've been too candid
now i'm barely standing
just call me a taxi
and prepare me for landing

oh, you have got to kick me back out
into the cold and nasty weather
and maybe if i SOBER UP
i will stop pretending that love is forever
love is forever.

vou pelos campos a perguntar... onde estás?

2007-06-01T01:58:00.000+02:00

it's too easy to wish you harm.

2007-05-20T12:05:00.000+02:00

my dark twin
the annihilating feminine
does not need
civilizing.

a songless robin
she became
he stole my sister samantha.
these silken rubber gloves
choking his vitriolic tongue.

so the desert blooms.

2007-04-13T02:16:00.000+02:00

i found this sketch in my notebook and can't remember the idea behind it. i think she was either dancing or trying to act like a tree and the trees were visibly delighted, maybe even dancing with her?

boris pasternak.

2007-02-22T11:44:00.000+01:00

february.
get ink, shed tears.
write of it, sob your heart out, sing,
while torrential slush that roars
burns in the blackness of the spring.

февраль достать чернил и плакать
писать о феврале навзрыд
пока грохочущая слякоть
весною чёрною горит

"valentine's day is a day invented by greeting card companies to make people feel like crap."

2007-02-14T09:17:00.000+01:00

in loving memory.

2007-01-30T19:47:00.000+01:00

it's been a year...

ezra pound.

2007-01-08T15:43:00.000+01:00

if you're never sorry
then you can't be forgiven
if you're not forgiven
then you can't be forgotten
if you're not forgotten
then you can live forever
if you live forever
then you'll begin to dream
of death
of death
of death

» check out my radio.blog

the papercuts, the cheating lovers.

2006-12-30T22:02:00.000+01:00

don't feed me violins.

chivalry is dead.

2006-12-29T23:16:00.000+01:00

merry christmas.

2006-12-24T13:12:00.000+01:00

cinnamon, ginger, pepper, cardamom,
clove, coriander, caraway, anise,
sugar shooting stars
bob bob bob

those girls that smile kindly, then rip your life to pieces.

2006-12-17T22:40:00.000+01:00

shame shame
time to leave me now
shame shame
you've had your fun
shame shame
for letting me think
that i would be the one.

cotton candy melting in the rain.

2006-12-17T16:22:00.000+01:00

golden warm sunlight
shining trough branches
of naked trees
i breathe in
i breathe out
winter's darkness
is sneaking up behind me
the red cat with the big moustache
he is closing in on me
again
running faster,
i'm losing you.

hyper-ballad.

2006-11-28T22:24:00.000+01:00

i go through all this
so i can be happier,
feel happy
happy
happier
to feel safe again with you
safe again with you.

.

2006-11-01T16:47:00.000+01:00

things are getting desperate when all the boys can't be men.

would you erase me?

2006-10-29T02:48:00.000+01:00

and all i could do was try...

2006-10-20T23:31:00.000+02:00

...but you didn't. you gave up.

i wish i hadn't seen all of the realness
and all the real people are really not real at all
the more i learn, the more i learn
the more i cry, the more i cry
as i say goodbye to the way of life
i thought i had designed for me

then i see you standing there
wanting more from me
and all i can do is try
then i see you standing there
i'm all i'll ever be
but all i can do is try
try

all of the moments that already passed
we'll try to go back and make them last
all of the things we want each other to be
we never will be, we never will be
and that's wonderful
and that's life
and that's you, baby
this is me, baby
and we are, we are, we are, we are
free
in our love
we are free in our love

you don't give a shit anyway.

2006-10-15T19:12:00.000+02:00

.
honestly
what will become of me
don't like reality
it's way too clear to me
but really life is daily
we are what we don't see
missed everything
daydreaming.

flames to dust
lovers to friends
why do all good things
come to an end?

- nelly furtado

regina-ah-ah-aaaah.

2006-10-11T21:24:00.000+02:00

i bought myself a white 30gb apple ipod a few days ago. i named her "regina" after regina spektor because i adore the way you pronounce this name (listen to her "pavlov's daughter" song, 1:11min and you'll know what i mean). it was more of an impulse buy on ebay but my old 30gb creative zen nx conked out some while ago anyway. my new ipod has a color display and plays videos. nifty, huh? plus i even start to like itunes...!

incidentally, i was in istanbul the last two weeks. it was crazy, this city is so huge and exhausting yet fascinating. my cousin finally took me to places like the hagia sophia and this beautiful cistern (yerebatan saray) which reminded me of the good ol' tomb raider games. i'm such a nerd. i also took a lot of pictures (over 700!) which i'll probably post over at my photoblog sometime. not all of 'em, of course. :p

apart from that, the new semester starts next week and i'm anxious about that. i haven't even decided whether to change my minor subject or not. the sky is getter darker, it's getting colder. finally, tea time again! and i'm still worrying my head off about too many things. i need distraction. sports, arts, anything. but my room is a mess, i have no space to dance. my room is so tiny, i have no space to think. it's crushing me. at least i could take my ipod and dance away in the night...if there weren't so many drunk students around. oh and the ogres in the woods, of course.

self-destruction day.

2006-09-16T20:59:00.000+02:00

secret pint.

2006-08-14T18:01:00.000+02:00

"raindrops" incense burning,
as if there weren't enough raindrops outside my room.
geez, the weather is driving me crazy.

drinking campari blood orange with penguin-shaped icecubes out of an guiness glass in the late afternoon. seriously, how low can you get? the funny thing is, i already feel drunk and i haven't drunk a single sip yet.

looking back at the other last few entries, i obviously have a thing for red drinks. you must think i'm an alcoholic, posting pictures of strawberry daiquiris and stuff like that all the time but the truth is, i hardly drink. it's just too cool to write about it. no seriously, i prefer cooking and baking. just yesterday i did a castella cake together with a fellow student. i love spending money i don't have on buying ingredients for crazy recipes i find on the internet or in health-food stores.

oh my! i almost forgot to mention that i went to munich two weeks ago! joana and me went to the robbie williams concert there which wasn't the bomb as the other fans were damn annoying plus it was raining the whole fucking time (it was an open air concert) so we were literally SOAKED to the skin after 3 hours balancing on our toes to catch a glimpse of dear robbie through the crowd. he didn't even play my favourite songs..."let me entertain you" during the encore was brilliant though. joana and me almost killed the people around us by SCREAMING and BOUNCING around so hard! haha! i'd love to go to the dresden dolls gig at the end of the month (in munich, again) but i probably won't have enough money to do so.

incidentally, i've passed my exam of doom. me happy.
watched the kick-ass series avatar: the last airbender and started with dr house as my other series are still on summer break. re-discovered mogwai, would love to see them live again sometime.

i used to write more back then.

2006-07-16T11:00:00.000+02:00

impressions of istanbul in april '05.
it's been a year.
there is still
the coral red nail polish
in her drawer.

the smell of earth
and those tiny blue flowers
on her grave.
i didn't cry then
but i yelled at
an infinite abyss of
apple blossoms.

istanbul.
the king of trumpery.
taxi rides along the sea.
dead jelly fish, wrinkles, pines
and those dirty alley cats
i miss.

i wrote this exactly one year ago, the pictures are from my trip to istanbul&adapazarı in april '05. i usually don't publish my writings because i think they're silly and too personal but this one's actually for a special person because it's a special day.

i don't wanna hear about your day.

2006-07-05T21:11:00.001+02:00

spending days sweating, trying not to faint on the bus and drinking strawberry daiquiris after uni with old friends. the japanese exam of doom is in about 2 weeks and i'm still not doing as much as i should but i'm always just too exhausted at the end of the day. i can't sleep properly either since it's too hot and there's a big spider i'm scared of sitting in the corner of my room. i named her "agatha" anyway and i'll probably keep her for a while because she's trapping all those nasty tiny flies. as long as she stays in her corner. yesh.

a few days ago i saw the clip of "wicked soul" by kubb on burger king tv or whatever. nanananna umz umz whatever. headdesk. aaaanyway i really like the song, it's very sexy and i'm currently obsessed with it. i put it on my radioblog so give it a listening to.

17 cherry tree lane.

2006-06-11T12:35:00.000+02:00

i tried to post this earlier but it didn't work. anyway. here's a summary of the past few months since a lot of people are bitching about the lack of updates here. gomenasa~ai! ^^ i also added a few new pictures to my photoblog so be sure to check it out.

january: basically, i was ill all month long. beside of the colds and sore throat, etc. my wisdom tooth decided to grow and hurt like hell. also, on january 31st our beloved cat vani died at the age of 13. my family and i were very upset about that. this is the last sketch i did of him:

february: i finally started working at lush and i still really enjoy my job, it's so much fun! i also started watching 24. i'm in love with mr jack bauer! :p

march: i went to this japanese crash course for 3 weeks to revamp my language skills. i also really enjoyed playing the new tomb raider legend, which is definitively the best part so far. lara croft love!!!

april: summer term started. went inline-skating with my friends for a few times. watched the crazy real life version of sailor moon. went to munich at the end of the month to visit kay & johnson.

may: had lovely picnics with my darling boy. spent way too much time on this dollmaker website (btw, this is a doll of me). worked on my presentation about japanese buddhism. got a haircut. that's pretty much it.

"oh, cathy! oh, my life! how can i bear it?"

2006-05-26T15:04:00.000+02:00

sketchy sketch time!
at the moment i am reading emily bronte's wuthering heights for the second time and i just love this scene with heathcliff & catherine the night before she dies. it's so mad and dramatic! maybe i'll draw more of it sometime. but for now, here's a sketch of mad catherine:

"what now? you and edgar have broken my heart, heathcliff!
and you both came to bewail the deed to me, as if you were
the people to be pitied! i shall not pity you, not i.
you have killed me - and thriven on it, i think.
how strong you are! how many years do you mean to live
after i am gone?"

happy valentine's day.

2006-02-14T20:12:00.000+01:00

r.i.p.

2006-01-30T19:38:00.000+01:00

vani pembepatik
august 1st, 1993 - january 30th, 2006

born in van, turkey. in summer 1993 he arrived at the ünver's home in stuttgart, germany. the smart tomcat with one blue and one green eye quickly became everybody's darling and lived an enjoyable cat life full of love. he liked sleeping in the family member's beds, sitting with them at the table during dinner, eating chicken and yelling at the top of his voice to terrorize the neighbourhood. he died at home of the consequences of a heart attack at the end of january.

vani will be dearly missed by his loving ünver family, his ex-wife topolina and their children puffy, irma, sahne, benek and felix as well as his adopted son mico. we love you and will never forget you.

and when it stops it stops, my heart stopped beating.

2005-12-31T14:47:00.000+01:00

h a p p y n e w y e a r.

happy birthday, mommy.

2005-12-22T13:35:00.000+01:00

cornflower, 50x50cm
paper, glue and ink on paperboard
december 2005

the arrival of the janitors.

2005-11-21T02:07:00.000+01:00

a few people have been complaining about the lack of updates here. i'm very sorry kittens, don't be mad at me. here, grab a cookie:

i just dunno where to start. lalala.
ok so in september i dyed my hair red. *sings* ♪ you got me moving in a circle, i dyed my hair red today... i always wanted to do that ever since i saw franka potente in lola rennt in 1997. it was the first time i dyed my hair and unfortunately i'm not very skilled plus i bought cheap dye so by the end of september my hair wasn't red anymore but more similar to a shade of color i'd like to call 'piss pink'. long story short: i got tired of hiding my hair under a hat all the time, got it dyed by a professional so now my hair is currently some kind of maroon. i often miss my dark blonde hair but oh well.

as i already mentioned in my entry in august i failed the japanese exam and should have redone it in october but i was permanently ill and had to reschedule it. i got tonsillitis 4 times since august. this is the reason why i'm scheduled for surgery on tuesday for having my tonsils removed. i'll be staying at the hospital for a week and another week at my parents' in stuttgart.

in other news, i've changed my minor subject from english literature to art history. why? because it sucked big time. then i got a job at the lush cosmetics shop in tübingen which is pretty great. and, like you've probably noticed, i acted in woody allen's central park west (you can see a few photos from the rehearsals at my photoblog).
that's pretty much all i could do during the last weeks, unfortunately not much sports or drawing as i was feeling exhausted and not very creative. instead i was killing time by drinking lots of tea and watching several tv series. speaking of which, i watched the very last episode of six feet under at the end of august which was so incredible and beautiful and...just THE FUCKING PERFECT LAST EPISODE!!!!! *cough* needless to say, i cried like a madman.

i won't go much into music this time as it's already 2am and i still have to pack my stuff and get some sleep before i check in at the hospital next morning. just wanted to mention that i have a last fm-account now. my user name's automatenkakao. kthxbye.

Central Park West

2005-11-02T11:06:00.000+01:00

Ars Bene Agendi zeigt

07.11.-10.11.2005
20h im Brechtbau, Wilhelmstr. 50 Tübingen
Karten 4/5Euro VVK vom 31.10-10.11. im Brechtbaufoyer, beim Verkehrsverein oder unter centralparkwest@gmx.net

Sam und Phyllis sind seit 12 Jahren verheiratet. Auch Carol und Howard sind schon lange ein Paar. Phyllis und Carol sind beste Freundinnen, Sam und Howard - Erfolgstyp vs Mann ohne Biss. Dumm nur, dass Carol seit zwei Jahren eine Affaire mit Sam hat. Phyllis hat nichts mitgekriegt, aber nun will Sam sie verlassen. Und gerade erst hat Phylls ihre vermeintlich beste Freundin angerufen um sich deswegen bei ihr auszuheulen...
Festgefahrene eheliche Konflikte, unter den Tisch gekehrt aus Angst vor Partnerverlust - Allen hält und allen den Spiegel vor.

i'm feeling really blaa blaa, i want to blaa blaa blaa.

2005-08-23T16:11:00.000+02:00

can you actually spent hours in front of your laptop playing helly-drop at gorillaz.com while listening to their ~~blahblah-song~~ rock it on repeat? YES YOU CAN! and why? because you've got tonsilitis and feel like crap and got nothing better to do. in fact, i spent the last week exclusively either in bed or in front of the tv, knitting. yes, knitting. me. i know, i honestly suck at knitting or needlework of any kind. but i will finish this scarf one day anyway. i started working on it 1-2 years ago and it originally was supposed to be a gryffindor-scarf (yellow/red) but i could only find black and blue wool so it more looks like some ravenclaw-scarf now after all. *shrugs* at least it's not hufflepuff because they're so not cool! and slytherin is evil anyway bahaha. i really like green though. thinking about that, yellow wouldn't fit to any of my dress style anyway.

oh have i already mentioned that i'm in love with the dancing noodle in the new video (dare-video) by the gorillaz?!

whatever. let's see...my last entry was right after this great tori amos show in munich. i heard that she recently played "ymca" on her summer of sin tour - i can't wait to hear that! XD today i've listened to her beautiful cover of "total eclipse of the heart" from the boston show. if you are a member of the turbid blue forums, you can get it there. spread the tori love. rrrrright.

wow, having trouble staying on topic today! so i bet you're all dying to know what happened during the last few weeks. first off, there was the japanese exam of doom in july. i completely blew it though which means i have to re-do it in october. cross you fingers for me, will ya? :)

joana, johnson, my brother and i also went to the coldplay gig in munich in july. it was pretty cool. the weather was fantastic, we were cruising through the city in the johnson-mobil with the windows down, listening and singing along to whacky x-mas music on full blast. HAHA! i was so surprised+happy when i found out that the first one of the two support bands was tomte!! they even played all my favourite songs!! yay! the other one was ex-the verve-singer richard ashcroft. i loved his "bittersweet symphony", it is such a great song! then, after a total of 4 hours of waiting, the coldplay-boys finally entered the stage. it was a great show and i was literally going crazy when they played "clocks". dancing to that song = bliss. after the show we stayed at kay's place before returning to stuttgart the following day. i'm surely going to post pictures from that trip in my brand-new PHOTOBLOG soon. *hint, hint*

august: so far i've spent most of the time just hanging around doing nothing. insomnia plagueing me, feeling absolutely uncreative, exhausted and lethargic. i was in a pretty depressive mood and just when i about to feel better again, i fell ill. bloody marvellous.

anyway, i'm already getting better. i'm looking forward to hopefully return to tübingen at the end of this week after spending almost two weeks here in stuttgart with my family. playing splinter cell with my brother on the xbox was pretty much fun though, i really miss the good old videogames.

ps: i've updated my personal site. just a few facts though, no new design or something.

tori amos.

2005-07-01T23:20:00.000+02:00

so...about the tori amos show last week: friday noon duncan and me went to munich. after storing our baggage in the lockers at the main station we went to the philharmonie because there was supposed to be a meet&greet with tori around 4 or 5pm. we waited along with other ~~fans~~ 'ears with feet' at the stage door. around 4:40pm she finally appeared with her bodyguard. her standing just a few feet away from me was weird. she is even more beautiful in real life than on pictures plus she is so so so cute! she has this air of maturity and loveliness, it's amazing.

the meet&greet was a bit disappointing though. i dunno how those things usually work but in my opinion it was pretty chaotic. not because of tori or the fans but because of the organisation. i couldn't reach her because of all those other people in front of me but duncan lifted me on his shoulders and some nice guy gave her my beekeeper album to sign. as she gave it back i bent over and even touched her hand! *fangirl-squee* muahahaw!!! ^^

afterwards duncan and me bought japanese green tea at some nearby asian supermarket and went to this park near the philharmonie where we spent the rest of the afternoon.

in the evening i bought the tourbook, buttons and the "sweet the sting"-shirt (although it is yellow...and i usually detest yellow!! but i loved the motive).

i also wanted those nifty orange knickers with "the power of..." written on the front but they only had them left in 'large' so...dammit. we went to the hall and after tom mcrae's little gig she finally entered the stage! with her shiny fiery red hair and this truly beautiful white+light pink dress inflated by her tiny quick steps she looked quite like a fairy. stunning.

01. she started off with original sinsuality of course.
02. when she started playing her second song, icicle, me and the girls (marielle&lea) almost dropped dead!
03. blood roses was just...WHOA!
04. ...and so was take to the sky! very very cool with the banging against the boesendorfer and stuff.
05. i'm not a big jamaica inn-fan...
06. ...but i enjoyed silent all these years
07. and strange.
08. the first song of tori's piano bar was simon&garfunkel's feeling groovy (59th st. bridge) which was quite cute.
09. the second one was peter gabriel's red rain.
10. the doughnut song
11. was followed by another highlight of mine: barons of suburbia!!
i mean, the ending just killed me...she was going crazy over the lines
i am piecing a potion to combat your poison
till she finally erupted in
she is risen
SHE IS RISEN
boys
she was looking in my direction and i was just staring at her, tears running down my cheeks because it was so beautiful and touching for me.
12. she then played mother
13. and taxi ride
14. before she finished with the beekeeper. the ending of the latter was amazing again. i felt hypnotized. it gave me the chills. it was like time froze, like everybody in the hall stopped breathing!!
15. 1st encore: the power of orange knickers & suede
16. 2nd encore: cars & guitars & cooling

all in all, a great show and a good setlist. i'm sad though that she didn't play other favourites of mine like marys of the sea, spark or siren... or space dog and yes, anastacia and...oh well and so on and so forth! :) my highlights of the show were icicle, blood roses, take to the sky, barons of suburbia and the ending of the beekeeper. yesssss.

one more thing: the show was very...quiet. which isn't a bad thing because it was wonderful anyway but i just wish i had discovered tori much earlier and had experienced her more 'wild' concerts in the 90's as well. y'know...freaking out like in this video clip of bliss and all that funky jazz.
anyway...I LOVE YOU TORI!!!
lalala!

after the show we got our baggage and went to kay's place where we sat around in the kitchen and the stairway till the crack of dawn.

saturday was...mellow then. we were hanging around in kay's room the whole afternoon and in the evening, we went back to tübingen. all in all, it was a pretty nice trip to munich.

the princess and her jester.

2005-07-01T23:17:00.000+02:00

[june 24th 2005, munich]
coolest picture ever? probably yes.

a melancholy town where we never smile.

2005-06-30T22:42:00.000+02:00

i hate summer.
i hate heat. the weather has been sticky and hot the last few days here which makes me feel dizzy and flabby plus i had blood taken on monday which weakens my circulation even more. fortunately, the weather is gradually cooling off again.

by the way, my weekend in munich was very nice and MELLOW and the tori amos show was great! of course! i will post pictures and write about the show another time though because i've gotta continue learning kanji now. i actually just popped in to add a few new songs to my radio.blog, enjoy!

x. Imogen Heap - Rake It In
i think she's something between tori amos and the dresden dolls with a touch of aziza mustafa zadeh. funky shit.
x. Gorillaz - Feel Good Inc.
shalala yeah baby the gorillaz are back! plus the video's rather cool.
x. Sneaker Pimps - Think Harder
"you ask me how to cure your headache, use a gun!" - enough said.
x. Nikkfurie - The A La Menthe
can't remember where i've found it but it rather rocks my socks. reminds me a bit of yann tiersen.

drei-götter-taft. die frisur hält.

2005-06-20T16:36:00.000+02:00

der zankapfel
- eine götterkomödie frei nach homer -
20.-23.06.2005 - 20h brechtbau theater
i'm so stressed out these days, kittens. sorry. i'll try to update properly soon.
ps: tori!!! this friday!!!! omg!!!!!!!!

for my mum-cat.

2005-05-12T21:04:00.000+02:00

i love to turn my little blue world upside down.

2005-05-12T21:01:00.000+02:00

i'm exhausted. i can't sleep properly, overslept today again (i actually dreamt about oversleeping and than woke up and realized that the lecture had just started fuck how creepy is that!?), i need to revise/study more japanese, i'm responsible for costumes&setting in one of the two plays i'm currently in which is far more demanding than i had thought and to crown it all, outside there's a gaggle of moronic students, boozing and bawling like idiots for hours now.

yes, that sound you just heard was my brain exploding.

things that stop me from going crazy: tori amos, pj harvey, tea with cocoa beans&caramel and climbing to the top of tübi-yama, lay on a bench and turn my little blue world upside down.

from munich with love.

2005-05-08T21:26:00.000+02:00

it's time, meet me on the sunny road.

2005-04-14T23:38:00.000+02:00

uni started again. busy, busy times. i was happy to find out that i've passed all of my courses i took the last semester. yay for me. the next 3-4 months are going to be very, VERY strenuous but as long as i have enough vanilla coke+coffee to keep me alive, i'll be fine i guess. also the nice weather and tori (live) are making me happy. i so can't wait to see my goddess live in munich on june 24th! tori tori! wohooo!
incidentally, last week i went to istanbul for a few days. twas lovely seeing my relatives, i miss them so much!

some recommendations:
music: apart from tori amos live (esp. snow cherries from france/philly & sweet dreams/boston), try "fisherman's woman" by emiliana torrini (esp. sunny road & thinking out loud)
restaurant: asian kitchen in stuttgart
movies: everybody go and watch the life aquatic with steve zissou! NOW! the scene where they are underwater and starálfur by sigur rós started playing = WHOA!!! also, if you haven't watched the blues brothers yet, shame on you and go and watch that one as well! haha kthxbye.

ps:
die arbeiten aus unserem comicworkshop werden diesen freitag (16. april) in der staatsgalerie ausgestellt und teilweise auch von uns vorgestellt. die ausstellung geht meines wissens nach den ganzen tag, die präsentation beginnt um 16h. falls jemand zeit+lust hat, kommt doch vorbei und schaut's euch an. der eintritt ist frei.

these precious things let them break their hold over me.

2005-04-01T23:17:00.000+02:00

marielle visited me last wednesday here in tübingen. we started planning our trip to great britain this summer and had lots of fun. guess we're the only crazy people in the world who try to get their chucks on a photobooth picture!? XD thanks for the great day and the krimbold! *g* hope you'll visit me again sometime soon! :)
by the way if somebody happen to know any good/cheap youth hostels, etc. in glasgow and/or london - please comment and let us know!! i'm about to go crazy over all those expensive accommodations. i mean, we're just needy students for chrissake! we can't afford to spend €30/night at a lousy youth hostel!

i promise, that one day, everything's going to be better for you.

2005-03-16T11:46:00.000+01:00

the weather was great today.
me and my kittens spent some time on the balcony
the sun warming our tummies
watching the cars driving by
giving each other kisses.
i think i've catched a cold. dammit.

they will see us waving from such great heights.

2005-03-15T23:14:00.000+01:00

paintshop's still bitchy so i've added some new music to my radio.blog instead, enjoy!
x. Mooi - Sway
from the winter chill 06.03 album. just...lalala.
x. The Postal Service - Such Great Heights
i didn't know that there are so many covers of this song. i only knew the one by iron and vine from the garden state soundtrack and this version is actually used in the trailer. i also found a live version sung by the dresden dolls recently.
x. Finley Quaye - Dice
this is the song from the end of episode 01x14 of the o.c. that's why i often have to think of ryan running in slow motion when i listen to it, hahagh! anyway, i think the song's quite beautiful.

i almost ran over an angel.

2005-03-14T01:29:00.000+01:00

I HAVE TICKETS FOR TORI AMOS!!!
boy, i am the happiest madman in the world! after that show, i can finally die in peace.
apart from that, sorry for not updating lately. i was very busy with all those exams and papers but now i'm enjoying my semester break and i will try to catch up some entries. i wanted to at least post some photos but paintshop decided to bitch around lately and screws up nearly all the pics i'm trying to edit. i'll try to fix that.
ps: this cracks me up

she is risen.

2005-02-23T17:42:00.000+01:00

new haircut!!
hi mom-cat! :)

can someone help me i think that i'm lost here.

2005-02-16T22:11:00.000+01:00

i feel exhausted.
keeping myself alive with greasy fat-dripping pizza, chinese junk food and vanilla coffee these days. i've got a terrible headache, my eyes are sore, my ears hurt and i am so tired. also tired of cramming japanese all the time. i feel bad about the exam no matter how many times i go over the whole stuff.

but lookie, me bought corny, pink little candles for my birthday on friday. ^_^ they reminded me of my childhood so i just *had* to buy them although i have no idea yet where to stick them into. maybe i should make some cake or muffins and afterwards throw them at random people or at those people who try to annoy me with this whole happy birthday-jazz.

by the way, i am totally obsessed with the o.c. right now. i can't get this stupid theme song (california by phantom planet) outta my head.
california, here we come...la-di-daa

general joy it seems you need a soldier girl.

2005-02-09T18:30:00.000+01:00

know know too well
know the chill
know she breaks
my siren

sort of fucked up today's jap civics test. it was a multiple choice one and a few times i felt like calvin. whatever, 3 to go.
weather was as great as yesterday. wish it could always be like this.
i want a new haircut, i adore keira's (what do you think?) but i'm afraid that the bangs would annoy me. don't have time to go to some hairdresser anyway. must study. sigh.

almost in love VANILLA.

2005-02-08T21:26:00.000+01:00

i wrote this language&use-essay yesterday and i'm so happy it's over, 4 exams to go!
the weather was divinestlyfantasticifabuly great today! unfortunately, i had to spent most of the time in some classroom. duh.
i think it's about time to post some sketches again:

[sketches for that comicworkshop-comic]
[if you can't recognize it, on the second one there's a girl and an awkward gull standing at the seashore. bigger version here]

[punk angel version 2.1. (see version 1.0. here)]
[well...i was very hungry today ^^ and yes, i was wearing my kitty hoodie today!]

by the way, i've added a new song to my radio.blog: tori amos - siren. <3

tübi-山　を　登りました!

2005-02-05T21:57:00.000+01:00

yesterday: private little tequila&junkfood party at jenny's while watching various movies and music clips and OF COURSE studying japanese! ;) bakabakabakabaka WUAHAHAHA. we also finally ascended tübi-yama that evening!

suicide tequila.

2005-01-31T21:02:00.000+01:00

after trying a few shots of tequila gold at the brechtbau-fest last friday i had decided to buy a bottle of it on my way home today. i put it on the window sill because it's madness to leave any kind of alcohol unattended in the fridge of the common kitchen of some dorm full with crazy students. anyway, a little while later the darn bottle fell off the sill for unknown reasons and naturally broke. did the bottle commit suicide or was it murdered by the evil blinds who collaborated with the mischievous wind because they were jealous of it's nifty little golden hat? who knows...rest in peace. wish i at least had had the opportunity to take a little sip before it broke into smithereens. dammit.

:(

work is the curse of the drinking class.

2005-01-29T17:56:00.000+01:00

gaaah! bright light!
the brechtbau-fest last night was pretty much fun! never saw so many drunk people though, some of them were even singing wacky songs for me. lovely. our play (~~trash hamlet~~ the fifteen minute hamlet) was great and so was thirst, played by some other members of the anglo-irish theatre group. i had to stay there till 5am because i had promised to help cleaning up the rooms. hell yes wiping up puke at 3am is so much fun! i arrived at home at 6am.

[my "gravestone"] [kerstin with her "coffee-beard"]

[the fifteen minute hamlet] [my first guinness!]

[thirst] [our room]

[a wee bit tipsy...?!] [yaay!]

the philosopher's beer drinking song.

2005-01-26T23:50:00.000+01:00

busy busy times. had no time for updating till tonight, i'm sorry. added some new (sort of chill-out) tracks to my radioblog, enjoy:
x. Patty Moon - Second Winter
the beginning reminds me of the ost of the nightmare before christmas
x.Nelly Furtado - Onde Estás
this one's simply beautiful, esp. when you know the translation of the lyrics ;)
x. Kinobe - Slip Into Something More Comfortable
can't remember where i got this but it's a great chill out-track!
x. Damien Rice - The Blower's Daughter
the opening song of closer. if you haven't seen this movie yet, go and watch it now! it's pretty good.
x. The Soundtrack of Our Lives - Surround Sister
ok, this one's a bit more "lively" than the other tracks. it was running in the background during a scene in ep.02x25 of six feet under, it's quite smashing.

perlen vor die säue.

2005-01-23T22:19:00.000+01:00

my weekend was busy because of the comic workshop, drawing sketches here and there. on saturday we all had to choose the stories we'd like to turn into a comic and i chose a story about a girl who strolls at the beach. it was quite difficult to adapt it but i linked it with this idea i had recently and i think it turned out quite well. the collaboration with the writer of the story was quite pleasant and so we worked out how many panels to draw and how to arrange them on which page. all raw sketches are finished by now and i have about a month to draw the 4 pages. going to be stressful because i have my exams next month as well. uhm. anyway, here's one of the first sketches of this comic plus pictures of busy comic artists. ;)

this one's for you, kay-baby!

2005-01-22T23:42:00.000+01:00

yin + yang.

2005-01-19T23:45:00.000+01:00

spent the afternoon at jenny's place learning kanji, watching alexander (miss jolie's oh-so-hot! but the movie was weird) and mulan 2 (why yes, we're crazy about disney movies! ^^). her mice are so cute!

they 're sharing a drink called lonelyness, but its better than drinking alone.

2005-01-17T23:56:00.000+01:00

a huge thank you to marc for driving to tübingen and visiting me. we spent the evening at some pub. porter, my precioussss. that made my day.

incidentally, i did my laundry all on my own for the first time today and everything went well. mwaaah i am so proud of myself!

hello, stranger.

2005-01-16T23:43:00.000+01:00

i was quite busy during the first two weeks of the new year so it took my a while to add some new entries i'm sorry. however, i'm quite surprised that there are about 10 people per day visiting my weblog so...hi to everyone!

last friday i went to this pub/restaurant called neckarmüller with a couple guys from my anglo-irish theatre group and drank porter. i quite liked it although i usually don't like beer-ish stuff. mäh-määäh-määählancholy. this afternoon we picked out some costumes and props for our fifteen minute hamlet which we're going to perform on the brechtbau-fest on january 28th (just a little reminder here). i am hippie-ophelia! XD unfortunately no pictures of my costume yet though.

holy freaks, i saw a caveman in the bus today! no kidding here, just look at the (sorry, rather bad) picture above. in fact, i was not only amused but also quite amazed by the details of his...clothing. i didn't dare taking another picture though because i was afraid that he'd bash my head with this large club when he'd notice it. o_O

i watched closer yesterday which was some pretty good flick. at the moment, i like listening to the shins, the streets and the soundtrack of our lives. also, i recently watched the most disturbing music clips EVER! two words: aphex twin. you better don't look at the 'picture'-section on their website dude if you don't wanna have nightmares. haha allright, i'm off to bed.

welcome back to reality.

2005-01-14T01:12:00.000+01:00

scribbles i made in jap class yesterday. sorry for the bad quality but i have no scanner atm and the pic was so crappy that i couldn't modify it properly. please ignore the two girls on the lower left corner, they're not part of my story, and just look at [1]-[6], thanks.
click in order to see it in full size!

this is actually how i feel when i am lost in thoughts and forget everything around me. like my head's in a huge soap bubble. then -plopp- i wake up again.

sleeping with butterflies.

2005-01-11T20:32:00.000+01:00

some sketch. i'd like to work on the idea with acrylic colours.
can't wait for the new tori amos album.

i am no ghost, i am just a shell.

2005-01-10T23:24:00.000+01:00

didn't got the opportunity to sleep and eat much these days as i was working on my pride&prejudice essay all the time. trying to keep myself alive with lots of coffee. nevertheless, the comic-workshop started yesterday. i was feeling pretty dizzy during our guided tour at the staatsgalerie stuttgart and if you want to know the truth, i didn't like most of the artwork of this funny cuts exhibition. there was nothing really amazing or inspiring for me apart from this video called no ghost just a shell which was rather impressing/interesting.

today we met at the literaturhaus in stuttgart. stefan dinter explained some basic facts about comics to us and afterwards we examined the works of each others. the following pictures show stefan dinter showing us some sketches of his comic called die kleinen mutterficker as well as naomi fearn looking at my artwork on my laptop. ^^;

i wanted to go to the vernissage of naomi fearn's exhibition called dirtfisch vs. zuckergirl but unfortunately had to return to tübingen that evening. :( anyway i already went through the whole exhibition in the afternoon and it is pretty cool! i loved it but that's no big surprise as i'm a huuuge zuckerfisch-fan anyway. nyahaha. no seriously, it's enchanting so if you happen to be in stuttgart during the next few weeks, be sure to take a look at it in the literaturhaus stuttgart. you can find the opening hours on their homepage and it's even for free so, like starsky would say, do it! do it!

leave me now, return tonight.

2005-01-07T20:23:00.000+01:00

i love deadlines.
i like the whooshing sound they make as they fly by.
- douglas adams

spent the last few days working on a new shoebox-collage while listening to the audiobook of jane austen's pride&prejudice. first i thought the book was rather boring but because i had to deal with it so intensely for my essay for the english literature proseminarI i actually started liking it. ok, which girl can actually resist mr darcy's "you must allow me to tell you how ardently i admire and love you"? eh right. ;) *swoons* i even changed my desktop background to some picture of keira knightley in the newest film version of pride&prejudice by joe wright because lizzy rocks.

i recently bought an acrylic colour set, 18 nifty little tubes! ~~bubbles~~, ermm tubes! tubes! my tubes!! haha seriously i am totally enthusiastic about them! they're so cool and make me feel all...artsy! XD

...and fuck you very much.

2005-01-01T23:50:00.000+01:00

spent new year's eve with joana, kay and johnson at joana's place eating a helluva LOT of junk food and watching finding nemo. here are some pictures featuring kay in pink fur, naughty johnson, sexy joana and sparkling me:

on other news, i finally saw the good girl today. jakey-boy as holden caulfield (well, almost)! GASP! enough said...seriously, i think the movie was rather good.

now i can hear the sun.

2004-12-28T21:02:00.000+01:00

as you have probably noticed, i've customized the layout of my blog a few days ago. it looks more like a part of comixcat.com now with the chickens and miss scarlett johansson from lost in translation.

i've also added some nifty little thing called radio.blog (s. "links"), hope you like the music i upload there - tell me what you think!

well, after spending the last few days either sleeping, eating or in front of the tv watching sissi i pulled myself together and went outside today (fresh air! gah!), some shopping with kay and her sister - sooo much fun! <3

"this is MY subway double chocolate cookie!!!"
plus i finally found a proper usage for those terrible H&M thongs - pretty hair accessoires, aren't they? omg, dork alarm...

merry x-mas.

2004-12-24T17:18:00.000+01:00

l-o-v-e.

2004-12-22T19:43:00.000+01:00

pinkelwiese.

2004-12-22T19:04:00.000+01:00

i'm in! wow, i never ever thought they would like my work! that made my day! i'm looking forward to the comic-workshop although it's going to be a little stressful since i have to hand in the finished comic on march 1st and my exams are at the end of february. oooh well.

it's funny, everytime the bus driver announces the name of this stop called "winkelwiese" i understand "pinkelwiese" (=piss meadow) and start giggling. yesterday i made a truckload lot muffins for my jap class. tomorrow's the last day before winter break starts and in the evening i am returning to stuttgart. i miss my kittens.

lalalalalalalala - bat thoooong!

2004-12-20T22:41:00.000+01:00

while searching for x-mas presents downtown i saw one of the most obnoxious thongs ever at H&M. honestly, who actually WEARS those things!?? however, buying the new volumes of battle angel alita: last order and god child cheered me up.

wasting my time in the waiting line.

2004-12-19T23:57:00.000+01:00

it snowed today! when some student was building snowman-ish things in front of my window i had to think of the calvin&hobbes comic strips ("attack of the deranged mutant killer monster snow goons!!") and how i'd like to play outside and then afterwards sitting in my cosy warm room, drinking some hot chocolate with a helluva lot of tiny marshmellows in it. however, i was too lazy to get outside at all. i made some apple-cinnamon-walnut-pie and (instead of studying) listened to "in the waiting line" by zero seven on infinite loop the whole afternoon while lying on my bed, staring at the wall. i feel strange these days.

random pics of the day.

2004-12-17T23:28:00.000+01:00

today was bônenkai at our jap institute. lots of sushi, some glühwein and playing bomberman & ddr - twas fun.

girl anachronism.

2004-12-16T23:29:00.000+01:00

my mate michael gave me the dresden dolls album today, i quite like their music and listen to it constantly while working on the portfolio for that comic-workshop in january in stuttgart. i doubt they'll take me since my style is way too sketchy but hey, at least i can say that i've tried. le sigh.

this is that kitty hoodie i recently bought at ebay. nifty, isn't it?
yay.
i watched the boondock saints last night and bang bang, it just rocked my socks. highly recommendable.

(pre-)x-mas-party at fiwe 3.

2004-12-14T23:26:00.000+01:00

this evening we had this little (pre-)x-mas party. everybody brought some food, we drank glühwein and took lots of pictures. here's me with eric, panos, lawrie and lawrie with thibault.

also, we'd drawn names last week so everybody got some little present: audrey with the heart-shaped taschenwärmer i gave her, eric with his shiny new shirt from panos as well as that beautiful hand lantern i got from lionel and sabine with her new hat from lawrie.

nice&naughty in munich.

2004-12-12T23:03:00.000+01:00

{joana, sam (me), kay, johnson}
the weekend in munich was so much fun!
we listened to crazy music like christmas swing (vixen!!) and the mary poppins soundtrack (chim chim che-ree~) while driving to munich and arrived there nutty as a fruitcake. since it already was late, we only met with kay at the main station, checked in at our youth hostel (the euro youth hostel, very recommendable!) and went to some friend where we ate sushi, yum-yum! とても　おいしい　でした。

the next morning we went shopping (poor johnson! alone with three mad girls!) and just walked around downtown. munich is quite nice but it was freezin cold that's why we bought johnson some mittens, spacy. in the evening we tried to dye his hair "schokobraun" but it didn't turn out that well so we got drunk on apfelsaftschorle and explored munich's nightlife which was fun although i can't quite remember everything apart from things like eating junk food at mcdonald's ("ich hätte gern ein unglaubliches menü!") and the very short visit of a bar called "tiefenrausch".

on sunday, the three of us visited the pinakothek der moderne (some art museum) but to tell you the truth, i didn't like the art there. it was frustrating in a way because most of the pieces were so uninspiring. after lunch we went back to good old stuttgart. the end.

for more pictures from my trip to munich click here.

very close friend of mine, but respect a thin line.

2004-12-10T02:56:00.000+01:00

i finally got my shiny new digicam yesterday! i still couldn't decide on how to name her (perhaps "tori") so if you can think of any cool names for a sexay sony cybershot dsc-w1, let me know kittens. also, i couldn't decide which picture to take first (i am insane, i know). lawrie suggested to take a picture of my feet, "like all the artsy fuck girls do". hahahagh. it reminded me of lost in translation so i did, here you go:

oh so senseless and unspectacular.
apart from that this week passed by way too rapidly. crazy things happened and i still have a cold, trying to keep myself alive by drinking at least a dozen cups of tea a day. joana, johnson and me are going to visit my darling kay this weekend in munich - yay!

songs of the week:
jurassic 5 feat. nelly furtado - thin line
coldplay - yellow

extreme-ikea-ing.

2004-12-05T02:44:00.000+01:00

i spent the weekend in stuttgart again, helping my darling joana setting up some ikea furniture for her new apartment. we both also went to the weihnachtsmarkt ("christmas fair", whatever), drank glühwein and met lots of old friends, twas crazy! i bought myself a new maunzerle and some mini marshmallows.

by the way, there was an earthquake here a few minutes ago! i was sitting in my bed when suddenly everything started shaking and then it became even stronger, it was pretty spooky and i started shivering like hell. i never thought i'd ever experience an earthquake in germany!

nothing here to fear.

2004-12-01T10:44:00.000+01:00

definitively NO fun: stumbling on the stairs with a bowl full to the brim with cornflakes and milk on the way from the kitchen to your room.
apart from that i love wednesdays. i really do.

nothing here to fear,
i'm just sitting around being foolish when there is work to be done...

the rest is silence.

2004-11-30T13:59:00.000+01:00

the anglo-irish theatre group (which i am a member of) is going to perform the fifteen minute hamlet at the brecht-bau-hausfest on january 28th '05 and i got the role as ophelia!!! i am so happy about it because ever since i saw the movie (y'know, the one with kenneth branagh and kate winslet) i somehow wanted to play that role! i must confess i haven't read the book yet but winslet's performance as ophelia was so stunning that i was immediately fascinated by that character.

apart from that i totally screwed up my english literature test today i'm pretty sure about that. it was just not enough time and i wasn't feeling too well either because of the cold which still bothers me. dammit.

zach love.

2004-11-29T21:17:00.000+01:00

awwww! squeeeee! i think that video post over at zach braff's blog just made my day! =)

my first weekend in tübingen.

2004-11-28T19:04:00.000+01:00

i've got a cold like whoa. =_= drinking a lot of tea these days. i've also made some apple-walnut-cinnamon-pie to cheer myself up.

aiko & idil.

2004-11-26T01:57:00.000+01:00

my japanese friend aiko sent me that picture of us which was taken at that party in fichtenweg 5 the other day. geez i should stop making those stupid v-thingie with my fingers, it always ends up looking crappy-crippled on photos.

「kopfinhalt」　は　古い　です。

2004-11-25T21:06:00.000+01:00

some madman living on the first floor forgot to turn off the shower today and all the water was pouring downstairs through the walls damn near flooding our whole dorm. holy flurry, we were about to call the fire department or something because needless to say we couldn't get through to any of the janitors here but then finally that guy showed up. guess everything's all right now. at least i hope so. hey funny in a way, i never saw so many people from my dorm at once!

apart from that my pencilcase drowned in vanilla coke today.
dammit.

pink skies are ahead, pink skies in my head.

2004-11-24T18:56:00.000+01:00

'cause there's beauty in the breakdown.

2004-11-24T13:13:00.000+01:00

happiness is
listening to good music
on a cold sunny winter morning.

music of the moment: frou frou - let go

we've no time for later.

2004-11-24T13:04:00.000+01:00

mein freund der baum.

2004-11-24T12:53:00.000+01:00

i just can't believe they're sawing off that beautiful tree in front of my window!

so what if you catch me, where would we land.

2004-11-23T21:12:00.000+01:00

i've decided to post some sketches i did during the last few weeks during boring (ahem...) lectures, here's number one:

obviously me at some bus station listening to some good music. i think it was "icicle" by the divine tori amos. look, i still had my little wool-kitten maunzerle back then. i lost him a few days after i drew this. if he strayed to you please bring him back, i miss him so much. :(

song of the week: remy zero - fair
(from the fabulous garden state soundtrack)

icicle, icicle where are you going.

2004-11-22T14:55:00.000+01:00

you said that things would change, my dear...

2004-11-21T04:29:00.000+01:00

"i am colin, god of sex!"

2004-11-17T03:01:00.000+01:00

lawrie and panos visited me this evening and we watched love actually (alan rickman! squeee!) and drank a helluva lot tea. yum 'n fun.